Ash Wednesday today. Three years since my great-aunt died. Not as sad an occasion as my grandfather's for sure, but I do kind of wish that she and I had been a little closer, and not at such discord when she left. Interesting I think, that in my mind, she left, but he went home to God. Telling of my relationship with the two of them I think, but accurate also, to my thoughts.

And on a completely different note, I want to make toe-up worsted-weight DNA knee socks.I'll have to pick a color that matches one of my "spinny skirts" though. Hmmm, off to see what kind of wool I can come up with for this project.

Not that anyone reads this anymore, but maybe that is just as well.

Today in confirmation class we talked about sin and redemption and such. Are you a sinner? Interesting question to ask me, and one I'm still not sure of the answer to, even by my definition of sin. Maybe particularly by my definition of sin. Sinning is an action that hurts other people and/or God. Well, if what I do because of who I am hurts other people, does that not make me a sinner?

But, I fell for someone, and I fell hard, and I haven't told her yet, for various reasons. If it weren't for her, I would be, I think, perfectly happy living my life the way I had been, and continuing in my prior plans. But now I realize, while I'm perfectly happy now, how much happier I would be if I had someone to share my life with.

But, where is the trade off? Between what I want, who I am, and whatever is in store for my future, that may not be what I think I want, there has to be something to give up.

But, maybe if politics progress as they are, particulary now that we have a new president, I could have both. This of course, is where my prayers and my hope are, and I'm working to get my faith there too.